A YEAR AGO: Life was different. 


There is an absolute truth to everything: we are always changing direction, we are on a quest. We are guided by that small yet sparkling ray of sunshine at the end of the tunnel. Along the way, we are exposed to the infinite joy and pain of: love, sadness, fear, loneliness, and even regrets, all these feelings are unavoidable. 


When I met love: I thought I could fly. Suddenly the world was a much peaceful place full of light and genuine smiles. A magical (much harder to explain than quantum physics) force which elevated me to reach the peak of the unknown. I laughed and I cried - like a child unaware. My state of mind did not allow me to see with clarity that which others voiced out to me. In short, and as love does, it snaps you out of wonderland on to Misery-land. I once heard a man say: "El amor cominenza como un sueño y termina en insomnia", meaning "loves begins as a dreams, ends as a nightmare", that man, was a genius. Love soon took me on a journey within my own quest, during which time I was faced with...


SADNESS: the most undeniably soul-perforating feeling, the same feeling that teaches you how to become a better you. Through sadness I found guided steps into self-betterment. I did not understand the concept of complete isolation from the one person that at a given point meant the world - in turn those feelings of fear and loneliness crawled in allowing me to see the world in a complete, new, and uncensored perspective. If you have ever been faced with a similar situation, then I am certain these thoughts will seem as clear as water. Otherwise, I will further end by saying that Love, Fear and Loneliness only teach you one thing: how to be stronger you, a louder you, a brighter you.


Every experience comes with a purpose - Every person we meet is designed to teach us a lesson. It may have seen as though I was losing myself as I explained my frustration towards these common feelings, however, the truth is: when one is on the edge, life creates a wall that prevents you from falling, we just have to rise above and climb over that brick wall to discover the meaning.

Happy Thursday

Hello followers (or lack there of) I like to believe you "all" have missed me as I have not been able to blog for the past day or so...It has been a beyond stressful week. I am currently done with school, until about August, so my days really consists of nothingness except for 20 hours of work each week. I've never been the type to go out much, so rather choose to stay home and do what "grown ups" do...watch television (especially indie movies) Boring isn't it? For many it might be, not for me, or else I wouldn't be doing it. That's not funny, but I like to think that I am sometimes even though I know I am anything but it...

On a different note, and the main reason for a tedious week...I've been experiencing massive headaches, I think it has something to do with my tooth, but until I go to the dentist (which scares the living hell out of me) I won't find out and consequently continue to live in agony and pain (wow, that sure sounds awful) On a much LIGHTER note...I'm going on a short vacation tomorrow, to Orlando FL (otherwise known as Disney World, or the place where dreams come true) I must admit this little getaway has got me very excited for the past two weeks, so it better be amazing.

I enjoy traveling so much, I mean, who doesn't. It is the greatest thing, after sex, I guess? Why did I just say that? Either way...I have chosen not to "delete" anything I post, so everything that you are reading is what I have genuinely transcribed from y mind to this blog. Nothing to UNDO, right :)

And that I got from my iphone, best freaking advice ever...To those of you who use iphones, or even those who do not...every time you shake it (yes, shake it!) a little window pops up and says "Nothing to UNDO" who would know that an iphone could serve as a therapist...Certainly did not. Thanks, APPLE.

Okay, well...I am gone for the next few days. HAVE A SAFE MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND!

xo

AN AGRY POST....

You know in a household...there's always the goodie-goodie sibling. The one that repeats after mommy or daddy just to be on their safe side. I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT. In fact it annoys me beyond belief, it is the most unappealing thing anyone could ever, ever do. How could someone kiss ass so badly for acceptance. Well, that person is NOT me.

THIS JUST IN -

I was just drowning in my own thoughts about: Insecurities.

WE ARE ALL EMOTIONALLY INSECURE. Some way or the other. Don't ever allow anyone to bring you down because they portray a "better" imagine. That person, the perfect, most beautiful and elegant, is also insecure.

I am tired of seeing all these "beautiful" people and their "oh-so-brilliant" romance; well, it is all surreal. Especially those who do it to bring others down. EVEN, those in the big screen use make up and airbrush to cover imperfections, photo shop and diabolic exercise regimens, hair-implants and invisalign plus teeth whitening and high heels.

No sense in doing things to please those you don't like. When did that become the new style. Come one folks, it's just ridiculous to even think that way.

So, let's stop feeling insecure (harder said than done, granted!) BUT, not so much if we begin to think and focus and REALIZE that no one will ever, EVER, be one hundred perfect perfect and hence never totally secure, it's a matter of being content and showing it off.

NO MATTER what you look like: FAT, SKINNY, TOO-TALL, TOO-SHORT, HAVE PIMPLES, ONE-BROW, UGLY TEETH, NO-TEETH.

You are all beautiful inside, and remember - WE ALL LOOK THE SAME IN THE DARK.

xo

On a Random NOTE

I think it’s so very sad how celebrities are so closed off to dating amongst that range. That circle of sometimes nothingness (Hollywood). And for us

the normals

how we cannot even dream of mingling with them. The world is a sad place because of this and because we choose to label it. Can anyone for a second imagine how amazing it would be if we could hang out with our favorite celebrities without having to worry about a thing. Without them having to worry about body guards or looking best. And all what for? Some are not even satisfied. They have all the money in the world, but thtat my drear cannot buy them any sort of happiness.

Where I am going with this is the following…John Mayer, has been wanting to settle down for a while. And this he makes obvious in interviews, songs, appearance. But who is to say his soul mate, the girl he always always tried to draw is in that circle of people? Obviously there is something wrong here. He probably has not found her yet and why are these people conditioned to loving within themselves. That is not only sad but obscure. He is a normal regular human being, as much as we love to idolize him, he is just like us. He should have the right to date like us. Why condition someone? Who is to say he cant date YOU or your neighbor or Me or your best friend’s mom because she works at Publix. LOVE is LOVE people. Love knows no barriers, name, race, condition, age.

SEX AND THE CITY

Sometimes we don't realize how lucky we are until we stop to notice the world around us. It seems to me however, sometimes people prefer to drown in their own misery over finding the light (wherever that might be) but this is not the case.

I guess I have been very fortunate to say that I love my life (cliche as that sounds, I do) not based on the things I own - that is all materialistic; but rather the real valuable things, the things that are priceless such as friendships and family, sometimes - but only sometimes - even love. I stopped seeking for treasure and I found happiness along the way.

Friendship: for a while now, I've been indulging myself of late-night marathons of the so very world-wide popular TV show "Sex and the City," I must admit I absolutely love it. I somewhat see myself through the character of Carrie. An independant and sophisticated woman, seeking love and feeding her lack there of with high-fashion labels provided by the BIG Apple.

Family: We may sometimes regect and avoid the idea of parenting and having people constantly worry about us when we are in our 20's. But as we get older, I must admit it gets comforting to know you have a backbone that will always rescue you from your own misery.

LOVE: I mesmarize about the day that I will find it or the day I will DEFINE it, rather. Who knows, maybe love is not meant to be defined after all. People, for cernturies ahave tried to put a label to the value of love and relationsips, but who is to say that these things apply to all...At any rate, I'll continue my quest and let you all know how it turns out.

Although I hate to admit it, I wish I had the "Secx and the City" kind of lifestyle. Not to say I'm discontent with the kind that I have in the present time, but I do however, see myself in that kind of setting in the near-future. I know I can because the heart of life, is good, and it loves me and as long as that is alive, I can and will achieve anything I want.

Murphy's Law

Lately, I have come to the, not so sudden, realization that everything ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING that can go wrong, simply WILL. I wish I had a better way to explain it without sounding so detrimental but it's inevitable.

I can only hope this NEW YEAR bring a lot of peace of mind, good memories and lots of loving experiences. BRING IT ON!


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :)